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2007-09-24 11:00 am
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Behind the eight ball - running to catch up

I'm on these late, but I feel the need to at least link to those who are not so behind as me.

If you haven't heard about it yet, there was a huge travesty of justice in Jena, Louisiana. Beginning with a group of black students asking the principle if they could sit under the "white" tree, and culminating in a black student being charged with attempted murder for a fight, when previous white students who had instigated fights walked off with probation. One of those students, Mychal Bell, is still being held in jail after nine months - despite his trial being declared a mistrial - because he was denied bail.

Wikipedia has a run down of the events.

There is a virtual march on Jena in progress along with more information.

Black Amazon writes movingly about some of the ramifications of this incident, among many others non-whites deal with every day. If you haven't already been acquainted with this fantastic writer, I highly recommend you check out her blog. Her poetic style and raw emotion catch me short every time.

In the wake of the attention Jena is (finally) getting, an earlier travesty of justice was brought up by persons I prefer to leave unnamed who objected to the attention the Jena 6, comprised of black males, was getting when another situation, comprised of seven black females, was not getting any.

Brown Femi Power responds with an incredibly detailed and humbling list of posts about the New Jersey 7, who acted in self defense and were charged - and in many cases convicted - with assault for it.

Racism is alive and well. Sexism is alive and well. Both of them are destroying lives with every breath taken. It's not a southerner thing. It's not a black thing, or an Asian thing, or a Native American thing. It's an all of us thing. The only way we can truly live up to the (as of yet unrealized) standards of the USA is if everyone demands equal justice under the law for all people, regardless of culture, skin color, gender, romantic orientation, gender identity, physical capability, or immigration status.
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2007-06-10 10:40 pm

Friend's Conference on Religion and Psychology, Annville, 2007

I went to a lovely conference over Memorial Day. One of the nice side effects of taking my notes on a computer is that now they're available for easy sharing via the intarwebnests. I've put them all behind the cut. The speaker was Bill Plotkin, and I quite enjoyed it all, even the discomfort. Enjoy, if you wish.

He used poems interspersed throughout to illustrate his points. I'll be reproducing them in the comments to save space in the initial post.


FCRP 2007 Plenary Notes )
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2007-04-12 06:23 pm

...i fail

So, anyone with a mac want copies of Sims2 Nightlife and Open for Business?

-_-
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2007-03-09 09:20 am

The Madonna/Whore Dichotomy

I posted this at Renegade Evolution's place, but thought I should give it a home here, too. And correct some spelling and grammar. *ninjaeditor*

Personally, I see THIS as the problem. There is a madonna/whore complex. Real women are affected by it. It permeates a lot and pops up often when you least expect it.

The question begged then is, how do we make it less powerful? Well, no, that's secondary - sometimes I think the first question SHOULD be (but often isn't) what feeds into this false dichotomy.

I personally think a lot of first wave feminism did. There was a perception that women were "more moral" and many sufferegettes (if I'm remembering my history right) banked on that as a reason why they should get the vote - they would serve as a moral backbone for the countries since the menz couldn't.

Ironically, THAT angle is very insulting toward men. Oddly enough, they were some of the biggest supporters of it. 8(

So we have virgin and whore.

Virgin is: moral (whatever that's been defined as this year), natural (ibid), nurturing, asexual, non-violent, and now (via first wave feminism) intelligent, successful, and ambitious. Viewed positively, she is the "angel of the household and the boardroom". Viewed negatively, she is Hilary Clinton. Her power hinges on being beautiful, remote, and untenable in reality. She is celebrated as the superwoman and fails by drinking, desiring sex, or somehow being out of step with what is "moral" or "natural".

The whore is: immoral or amoral (whatever that's being defined as this year), unnatural (ibid), aggressive, sexual, violent, loud, takes up space, demanding, powerful, and self-sufficient. Viewed positively, she is strong, sexual woman. Viewed negatively, she is the object upon which people play out their fantasies of dominance, consumption, and violence. Her power hinges on being an outsider, on shock, manipulation, and sexual allure. She is celebrated as the actress and fails by showing vulnerability or unattractiveness.

Any virgin can and does become a whore by disagreeing with the "people in charge", whomever they may be. And the gods help those who aren't attractive or who are overweight; there's no room in either archetype for either of THOSE traits.

I'd argue that many of the "positive feminine traits" celebrated by many woman's rights and feminists groups fall under "virgin". The woman who breastfeeds her child and doesn't shave and expects other women to do the same, for example, is fitting into the "natural woman" aspect of the virgin. The women who scan aggression as "masculine" and nurturing as "feminine" are coding the "whore" as both undesirable and not even female. And so on and so forth.

But I'm still left wondering, how do we break this false dichotomy? Honestly, there are things off of both lists that I WANT and that I try to embody, and that's my small way, but I find myself wishing there were bigger ways to act.


FWIW, I'd say the male examples are the effeminate and the macho man - for any MRAs out there who want to explore their own untenable archetypes that are used against them to control them. Sometime I want to get a listing of the characteristics of those archetypes and see if they scan to virgin and whore the way I think they will. ^^
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2007-02-08 10:39 am
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Ode to the Razor, Choice

Ode to the Razor, Choice
by Deoridhe

Time twists and sheers the limb from tree
Both bark and blood descending free
In time with choice's cruel decree.
Curled in the night
When fears take flight
Beware the sight
Of apples floating on the sea.

Refracting back into the sky
The winds of choice are riding high
White hunters seek and dare and die.
Under the moon
They will come soon
Fast cries the loon -
Your pains are riding passions by.

You cannot bind them -
Free they dance.
You cannot hide them -
Come now chance.
You cannot mind them -
They seek the edge.
You can only bide them -
Cling to the ledge.

Two coursers bright with blood ride past,
Then two of pale and tattered cast,
Two more of shadowed scar the last
With screams of fear
Pale rider's spear
Collapse the steer
The rise of red - reveared contrast.

Thus hope and dream dies with the day
Bleeds into dark without delay
Soaks down in earth to mark the way
Three drops of blood
A traveller's bud
To guide the flood
Of those who from the light will stray.

You cannot bind them -
They seek the crown.
You cannot hide them -
They rise and drown.
You cannot mind them -
They come and go.
You can only bide them -
And then you'll know.
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2007-01-12 11:58 am

Famous Blue Raincoat

I am unreasonably obsessed with this song. Eventually, the themes will make it into a fic; the idea of a love triangle that isn't focused on just one person... intrieging. Plus it would be MMF, which is my favorite configuration evah.


Famous Blue Raincoat, by Leonard Cohen

It's four in the morning, the end of december
I'm writing you now just to see if you're better
New york is cold, but I like where I'm living
There's music on clinton street all through the evening.

I hear that you're building your little house deep in the desert
You're living for nothing now, I hope you're keeping some kind of record.

Yes, and jane came by with a lock of your hair
She said that you gave it to her
That night that you planned to go clear
Did you ever go clear?

Ah, the last time we saw you you looked so much older
Your famous blue raincoat was torn at the shoulder
You'd been to the station to meet every train
And you came home without lili marlene

And you treated my woman to a flake of your life
And when she came back she was nobody's wife.

Well I see you there with the rose in your teeth
One more thin gypsy thief
Well I see jane's awake --

She sends her regards.
And what can I tell you my brother, my killer
What can I possibly say?
I guess that I miss you, I guess I forgive you
I'm glad you stood in my way.

If you ever come by here, for jane or for me
Your enemy is sleeping, and his woman is free.

Yes, and thanks, for the trouble you took from her eyes
I thought it was there for good so I never tried.

And jane came by with a lock of your hair
She said that you gave it to her
That night that you planned to go clear

-- sincerely, l. cohen
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2006-10-20 03:07 pm

Addendum

You know you've been playing WoW too much when you want to alt-z to get rid of the interface and printscreen upon seeing something particularly pretty offline.

*sigh*
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2006-10-20 03:06 pm

Race in Fantasy

So I was reading a favorite series again last night when once again, like a bolt of lightning to my brain, I was struck by how pale all of the characters were. There were many "races," but all of them were described as looking similar, with perhaps olive skin as the darkest skin could get.

This is an insidious sort of "whitewashing," I think. Not only are darker skin tones unimportant - they don't even exist! And this, in a fantasy world! Talk about fantasies; seriously, what does this say about the author? That isn't to say I will dislike the stories now for this single aspect, but for people who write fiction out there who have races and species, study their skin color for a bit and see what it says about you.

When I was in elementary school, I began creating a world. In junior high, I became aware of how shallow my comprehension of good and evil were, leading to a schism and war in the fictional landscape I had made. In college, contemplating my species along side three professors, I made a rather radicat decision about melanin - one inspired by a favorite book of mine where someone was "burned pale" - melanin was pale. Of course, since my first story was about Dwear'selenes, who were a slight, underground dwelling race, this meant that their skin tone took an abrupt change. Strelin is darker than Jarnaax - her lover (yes, they became lesbians, too; don't ask me, ask them - that was in high school) because she comes from a group that had settled deeper in the caves.

I wonder, sometimes, what it says about me that my decision to alter the color of my humanoid species' races came from a recognition of the effects of melanin from a biological standpoint. A peculiar sort of blindness, I think.

Don't ask me where the homosexuality came from, though. That was Strelin and Jarnaax's idea.
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2006-10-13 08:46 pm
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PSA RE: Spirit Animal/Totem

I know this is an issue that has been keeping many of you up late at night, spoiling otherwise lovely hours of repose, so I felt the need to apraise you immediately of my awe inspiringly accurate realization.

My Spirit Animal is the rainbow! It is bright, and ephemerial, and frequently sillily found hanging out in the gutter. It likes bubbles and oceans and rainy days. It has a nasty habit of being there one moment and gone the next. It isn't terribly reliable, but it can be a lot of fun. It is wide and round and sometimes double or triple sized. In short, I can think of no other spirit animal that suits me better.

...what do you mean rainbows aren't animals? DX
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2006-09-07 10:35 am
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WoW we're funny!

In quick succession, humor landed in the Deo WoWniverse!

A couple of nights ago, when hanging lose on Mug'thol, someone in our guild mentioned Star Wars. I pipe up with "Help me, Obi Wan Kownobi. You're my only hope!"

Well, with a name like that, how could we resist?

Twenty minutes later, there was a disturbance in the pasture.



Last night, I sat down to play with some similar-leveled friends on Thunderhorn. It was an odd grouping - two priests and a druid. And the Mighty Female Healers Delta Squadron was born.

I love my friends.
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2006-08-22 05:44 pm

Wanderings in the Web

Here are a few of the places I've been checking out lately.

Metafilter Less snarky than Fandomwank but more intelligent than Fark.

The Slacktivist Did you know Evengelical Christians could be this fucking cool? Highlight of the site - an analysis of the Left Behind series from a Biblical point of view.

Gothic Charm School My only whine is the slow update schedule, but each article is worth the wait.

Waiter Rant He's a waiter who rants. Frequently philosophical, always entertaining.

Angry Black Bitch She causes me to crave vodka crans at the most inappropriate times!

Bitch | Lab A very logical take on feminism from someone whose politics I, by and large, agree with. Yes, apparently this makes me not a feminist to some people. Opps.

The Perorations of Lady Bracknell Anyone fond enough of Wilde to take up such a nom de plume is all right by me. We'll ignore the teensy Austen sarcasm slip up, shall we?

My Daily Constitutional Just cool. Nothing more needs saying.

Real Live Preacher His thoughts of the day cemented him in my affections.

The Fine Art of Free Speech and Dissent Sex and feminism and gender, oh my!

The Musty Man Interesting views on opting in and opting out.

Mistress Matisse An excellent - and hot - read. She also writes a column in The Stranger.

Why yes, it is a nice variety, isn't it? Needs more cowbell, though.
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2006-08-15 04:39 pm

Otakon Con Notes

I know you all have been waiting breathlessly for these. Thankfully, I typed them on my laptop, so they're not till sitting in a notebook like 2005's con notes... These are the panels I went to!

Otakon Con Notes

Science in Anime - Friday, 1PM )

Fan parody panel - 3PM Friday )

Gaia Panel 6PM Friday )

Anime and Philosophy - 9PM Friday )

Costume Design – Saturday 9AM )
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2006-07-24 04:25 pm

Priviledge checklists.

Recently, lists of priviledges were tossed around in various forums that I read and participate in. For those not familiar with them, priviledge lists are lists of things that people who have X characteristic don't have to deal with. X characteristic is usually something where there is systemic discrimination against people with N characteristic, for example blacks, or women, where N characteristic is viewed as opposite X characteristic. The common responses I've seen on the people who come out with advantages from the systemic discrimination vary widely, from "yeah, part of the only group that's not discriminated against, let me explain how my life really sucks" to "But it mixes the petty with the major; that's lame!" to "But what can I DO??? I just feel guilty and it sucks!!!" For the record, I tend to fall on the latter side of things. Some examples are: the White Privilege Checklist and the Male Privilege Checklist

I was in a situation once where I said something ('could you please move to the back,' when I was driving a vehicle for multiple people) which was interpreted as racist (I considered the time of picking the person up - e.g. the last people should have the seats closest to the door because they moved very slowly and we were on a time schedule - over the respective skin color of the people involved). This was an example of white priviledge rearing it's ugly head; while I had heard about discrimination on buses, it never occured to me that that interpretation could be given to my words - and that was a privilege. I could never make it up to the gentleman I offended, for he would have rebuffed any attempt and perhaps rightly so. He avoided me from that day onward; he was a dignified man, and I think the shame of the memories and acknowledging them to me in my ignorance would have been too much for him. I did, however, in my way attempt to make resistution. I still didn't want to wait ten minutes for the last two, extremely slow passangers to laboriously move beyond a crowd of people, but I did choose to explain that was the reason why when asking people to move backwards. I don't know if it helped, but with my new knowledge it was what I chose to do.

Privilege lists are a window into a world one can never really experience firsthand, and should be honored as such. Personally, my choice when presented to them is to change my behavior insofar as it resonates with my values. I am unlikely to discuss reproductive rights without mentioning forced sterilization, given the knowledge I've gained from others. I am likely to be explicit in why I ask people to do things. I'll make posts like this. ;) I look for diversity in opinions and knowledge. When I'm wrong, I try to make what resitution I can, accepting that sometimes there is no restitution which can be made.

I refuse, however, to become bitter in my privilege; it was not sought by me, but it was given to me, and that is the fate I have to deal with.
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2006-06-30 10:27 am

The Powerless, Average Person

The second episode of Ghost In the Shell: Second Gig is an interesting one, and one that I personally find highly resonant to the circumstances I find myself in. It tells the story of Gino, a war veteran and pilot for a business official who works in the media. He is disatisfied with his life, but in such a way that renders him impotent; this impotence is underlied by a more physical reality of such that comes out in the course of the episode.

He lives in violent fantasies. Every day, sometimes several times a day, he imagines violent terrorist acts that often include his own death. And yet, when snapped back to reality, he is mild, polite, and prone to cowardice and begging. His bravado is all internal; his violence is siphoned into fantasy; he can't even cancel a donation effectively.

The Director of the series, in an interview in the extras, commented that he felt Gino spoke for the average people living in the world whose disatisfaction is so generalized that it leaves them without any clear course of action, and in fact leads them to criticize anyone who [b]does[/b] try to act. I have to say that, far more than the average people acting in unspoken consesus which was the theme brought up in the first episode, this speaks to how I feel about the world right now - powerless, impotent, unimportant; grandious in my own mind, but when called to act a coward.

I have a feeling this is going to be a very interesting season.

------------------------------------

And on an oddly similar note, OMG Girlz Don’t Exist on teh Intarweb!!!!1. I think the statement "Woah, you're a girl. That surprises me, you are actually a good priest. No one has died." was what made me die a little inside. Even the nice people with good grammar think women suck.
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2006-05-16 01:35 pm
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Linkspam

Primarily via Metafilter:

From Dictatorship to Democracy

My TV Boyfriend is so lovely!

Philosophy is Phun!

GI's battling the Vietnam War - a documentary

Doctors urged to treat all women as if they were pregnant. This is news? Half the reason we don't have solid studies on women is because of worries about damaging fetuses. DX

How to Deconstruct Anything. An engineer takes on literary criticism.

Singularities might actually be a quantum critical phase transition on the surface of/right below the surface of a star. Reference the second, same topic.

Author interviews.

Five second notes:

I saw the new Doctor Who. The hour format is less weird to get used to than I thought it would be. The new doctor is hott and I love Rose. The references to the past make me squishy and happy. Four is still my favorite.

I am playing WoW, on the Thunderhorn and Mug'thol servers. I'm sure you can anticipate what my primary username is. My secondary one is Deoiridhe, which is my name spelled correctly.

I have finished Socrates. Symposium is cool, especially from two POVs. Homeboy still has balls the size of Texas. Machievelli is much easier to read than Socrates, and legions easier to read than Aristotle.
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2006-04-27 03:19 pm
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Ego Boost to the Snacky! Yay!

I will never forget the first time you posted in my journal saying something because I was so amazed that the Famous Snacky of the Famous Snacky's Law was talking to me.

Yes, I'm that lame. ;)

You are an incredibly witty person. I can't count the number of times I've started giggling at comments you've made. You also have a very clear and rational way of viewing events, and believe me this is a compliment of the highest order. I've always felt as if I can share things with you without censure; even if you disagree, I know you'll explain why and how and we'll still be friends at the end of the exchange. Even OTPs.
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2006-04-27 08:48 am
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Links from Friends that lead to searches are GOOD

I have a new beloved poet.

Who Said It Was Simple
by Audre Lorde

There are so many roots to the tree of anger
that sometimes the branches shatter
before they bear.
Sitting in Nedicks
the women rally before they march
discussing the problematic girls
they hire to make them free.
An almost white counterman passes
a waiting brother to serve them first
and the ladies neither notice nor reject
the slighter pleasures of their slavery.
But I who am bound by my mirror
as well as my bed
see causes in color
as well as sex

and sit here wondering
which me will survive
all these liberations.
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2006-04-25 03:19 pm

These Dreams...

I dreamed about my TV boyfriend last night. I was on some sort of cooking trip in a plane, and for some reason my TV Boyfriend was showing us how to cook on the flight over. My mom was there, and my brother, and [livejournal.com profile] kaijin and, I think, [livejournal.com profile] animeg, but we couldnt' sit together because of a scheduling snafuu and were all over the plane. My TV Boyfriend had a whole cookstove in front of him, and was making something called, I think, a polenta. It had rice and vegetables and fruit in it and was really good. We had to make it later, which was why he was demonstrating, but most everyone wasn't paying attention.

You know, I've had tv crushes before, but this is the first time he's ever shown up in a dream! I'm such a geek; trust me to finally dream about a celebrity and hae it be Alton Brown. ;) I suppose I should just be relieved the characters from The Korean Drama didn't show up, given how obsessively I've been watching it. (Can you believe I've only missed one episode? Neither can I!)

Last night's episode was very dramatic. *hugs self* I want a Lee Minhyeong. Unfortunately, since I'm not Yujin, he wouldn't love me. T___T

Edited to add:

OMG, Illinois and California are beginning impeachment legislation toward George W. Bush. OMG.
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2006-04-20 11:03 am
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Winter Sonata

You're officially obsessed when you make a user icon about it. 8)
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2006-04-11 12:15 pm

Book Wank

Someone missed the day they covered "satire" in Lit class. Somewhat ironically, I said to my co-worker right before reading this, "I wonder how many women who like Pride and Prejudice don't realize it's a satire. I hope not too many."

We can add several to this list from this article alone.

I hope and pray that the opening line, "It is a truth universally acknowledged that the book women feel has most transformed their lives is the one that has assured them for the past two centuries that, yes, they will marry the wealthy, handsome man next door and live happily ever after.", is read with the same deeply satirical manner that Austen wrote her first line of Pride and Prejudice in, but I fear both hope and prayer are lost. Given that later on she quotes someone saying, "The writer Suzanne Moore similarly questioned Austen's relevance to 21st-century women, albeit with slightly less specific and descriptive objections: 'I can't see how it changed women's lives, it just confirmed what they were meant to be. It is a great book, but it's about how women have to shape themselves within social conventions.'"

Only, you know, not.

If Elizabeth Bennet has "shape[d herself] within social conventions," she would have married her first cousin halfway through the book and moved into his parsonage to play court to Fitzwilliam Darcy's tyrannical and ridiculous aunt. One of the critical decisions in that entire book is her refusing to marry, in fact; a critical decision that Austen obliquely reinforces by having her eventually marry someone far richer than her cousin, though Elizabeth herself thinks of the improvement in terms of their mental and spiritual connections not her monetary gain.

The entire book is not about how marrying rich people is good; it's about how pride and prejudice cloud the mind and how they may be overcome. The marriages are window dressing on a far deeper and more meaningful lesson. It also lampoons people who think only of their own importance, people who base how they treat other people on their perceived status, people who fail to be rational, and - more gently - people who are amiable and even tempered but unclear.

It terrifies me that people get so caught up in the plot that they miss the point.